The new year has barely begun and it feels like I’m already ahead of myself. I’ve found myself looking far beyond the horizon wondering if I’m ready for some change in my social life.
I feel like I’ve been putting distance between me and a few others. I don’t know what to make of this increasing distance: is it the result of me no longer accepting people because I don’t like them? Or, is it the result of me realizing that there was never a place for such people to begin with?
I still remember someone I know telling me he believes in making as many friends as possible because it’s his way of making the most of his life. Admirable? Sure. Ridiculous? Sure. But why do I find it ridiculous? Why, because he has a different way of thinking than I do? Because he is more open while I’m more guarded?
It’s never really been about the quantity for me; I don’t seek more people to follow me or to befriend me. I don’t have 300 followers on Twitter while others are desperate to feel important by getting spambots to follow them. It’s crazy, they go all over the place on Twitter begging people to follow back while hoarding more and more followers just to reach an arbitrary milestone, like 1,500, or 2,000, or more. “OMG I FEEL IMPORTANT!” Please.
I really don’t know if my patience has already run out with certain people or if I’ve finally realized that these people never should’ve had a place in my life to begin with. It’s impossible to keep such undesirables out before day 1 (not even SaBROmetrics could do this) but I’d like to think that I’m more cognizant now of what grinds my gears; I’ve gained better awareness and a better understanding of when someone has overstayed his or her welcome.